2025 Wildly Capable

A heartfelt confidence about planning for 2025 and finding my word of the year.

The past couple of weeks I’ve felt stymied – unable to move forward. I like to take January slow and spend some time hibernating and resting during these first cold weeks of the new year. Granted that has been a bit tough with an almost one year old who is about to start walking. But this year I’ve felt more weighed down and uncertain. When I sat down to figure out my word of the year and write down my vision for 2025, I realized what I was feeling was a new level of fear in my head and heart…

Fear of failure.

Fear of hurt.

Fear of not being good enough.

Fear of the unknown.

Swirling questions of…

Can I cope?

Do I matter?

This fear has always been there. I’m an Enneagram 1, so as a perfectionist I always fear not doing it right and living up to expectations (mostly self-imposed). But the fear has rarely slowed me down and prevented forward motion. Right now it feels bigger — more concrete. It’s harder to move through.

Maybe it is the anxiety that comes with parenthood. Maybe it is my approaching 40th birthday. Maybe it is just a slump.

While doing a little introspective exercise, I scrolled through all my photos from the past year on my phone, crying over those early days of James in the hospital; the sleepless nights; the pure joy of him. I was mesmerized by how far we’ve come. I sat with all of the hard things I endured last year:

A 36 hour labor…

A preterm baby…

8 days living in the NICU…

Difficulties breastfeeding…

In 2024, I became a mother and ran a business. I adapted. I am grateful.

When I reflect back on 2024, I realize how capable I am…how WILDLY CAPABLE!

And there’s my guiding phrase for 2025.

I have to give credit to my day planner, of all things, for that phrase. As I was flipping through the pages and reading each month’s inspiration there under April was the saying “never forget how wildly capable you are”. It was just the right affirmation at just the right time.

When I look forward to the year ahead with doubt in my mind I am fearful, but when I remember I am capable I feel strong.

I can adapt.

I can grow.

I can move forward.

I have all I need.

It doesn’t mean everything will be easy, but if I have confidence in myself, I will figure it out. Maybe life won’t be perfect. Maybe it will take trial and error. But maybe 2025 will come out just how it is supposed to be!

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I feel a bit vulnerable sharing this post with you all, but I know you will read it with kindness. Ultimately, I decided to share these thoughts because you might be feeling a similar crisis of confidence. As women we seem particularly prone to this pitfall — “impostor syndrome” as they say. This is your reminder…you are strong too! Please…

Never forget how wildly capable you are!